Sunday, May 13, 2007

self-pity...

finally i got my JPA, and it's the course i wanted, MEDICINE...but it's in ....indonesia??? i don't know whether to feel happy or not. my grandma and auntie have been so excited imagining me finally given an oppertunity to further my tertiary education in the prestigious Ireland or Australia, or maybe worse come to worst, India, at least it's still better than Indonesia by at least, i don't know...a hundred times? to look on the positive side of it, i am one of the 180 non-malays in malaysia being selected for this JPA scholarship and obtaining this notoriously popular course desired by students from all over the country who always counted on JPA scholarship to realise their dreams of becoming a doctor. people surrounding me are saying that i am so fortunate to be selected, that i am so lucky to get my dream course. honestly, i think i should be feeling that way, but ironically i don't, not at all. should i be grateful to the government for reserving a place for me? i guess not especially when the situation now is some "people" with lousier results than mine actually manage to secure a place in ireland, australia, india.... this is so unfair. but, you know what, the world is never fair. remember how our parents always urge us to be fair to others? it's so unrealistic. you want to kesian others? kesian yourselve first la!

2 comments:

leonard leao said...

No matter what, i hafta congratulate u la...try to be positive...u know why u have 2nd thoughts about indonesia? It boils down to stereotyping, is there any proof that doctors who graduated from indonesia is not as good as those from the western countries? If so, then a lot of indonesians is destined to die...local docs are bad and foreign docs are expnsive...get what i mean? But, yeah...in this realistic world, such stereotying do exist, but be positive, be grateful and count ur blessing because to get a jpa is very hard and u are definitely blessed.

Do u know what is the highest achievements a person can have? it's the ability to break stereotypes...Mahatma Gandhi did it, George Washington did it and u might do it as well...

Best of luck my friend and keep in touch!

apple-rainbow said...

Ya...absoluty right(i mean nard)...accept the reality...if not u won't be happy..=)